The other day I came across some photographs taken on an old cell phone. This treasure was one of them. It’s a photo of my first brain painting, which was a gift to an artist friend. She and I were having a discussion about “growing old” (whatever that means) and death. I thought perhaps a meditation on illness and the body/organs through art might bring out the humor of the situation. We often expect art to be aesthetically pleasing. As a culture, we have a certain idea of what is beautiful, namely youth and perfection. But what makes art beautiful and people beautiful are the imperfections.
When deciding on a title for this piece, a lot of different ideas came to mind: I’m Coming Out!, Departure, and The Final Frontier. After I came up with the current title, Out of My Mind, I had to pause for a moment to consider its implications: This phrase literally refers to the mental state of being “crazy.” But what does it really mean to be crazy anyway? It has such a negative connotation…just like disease and death…and art that is not “beautiful.” I realized that this title was then quite fitting for this piece which honors the beauty in illness and imperfection.
Actually, the zen practice of “mindfulness” requires being in the present moment and stepping out of your thoughts. Letting them pass by you like swimming fish. You can notice them, but you don’t become consumed by them. One of my favorite mantras comes from my yoga teacher. Practice saying, “I am not a body. I am not a mind,” as you breath in and out. Do that a few times and see how different you feel about yourself and your current situation. It’s guaranteed to lower your stress levels. And if you’re an artist like me, it’s a great method to use when you notice you’re stuck in your work. Mindfulness implies mental focus, but it is just the opposite. Often when we think we’re stuck in our writing or art, we’re simply too close to it or overly focused on the minutia of it.
So let’s all practice stepping out of our minds. Take my advice. Get a little bit crazy! Enjoy the view from the final frontier. It’s beautiful out here 🙂
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